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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 27, 2021 22:44:07 GMT
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Lewis' instinctive urge was to seize this chance to begin expounding at length on the reforms that were necessary in medical education. She had more or less opened the door to the subject, whether she realised it or not, and if he had been the same man he was when he had first joined the profession, he would not have let that opportunity pass by. He had launched into similar rants on far less provocation, more than once.
Nevertheless, since then, he had learned. A few too many times, he had found himself a complete pariah in a room, with no one willing to engage a man in conversation who had thoroughly proven himself to be terrible company. Even for someone who was not fond of much conversation, that stung. And, paradoxically, he had found that becoming a pariah made him as much the centre of attention as becoming a popular figure might.
So, he had learned to rein himself in. It was not always easy, and he often found himself diving into medical topics of conversation before he realised it, but he tried to catch himself early enough to walk the conversation back with an attempted joke at his own expense. He did have a sense that Penelope might be a bit more receptive to such a discussion than most attendees at this party, but it was better not to test that theory. Instead, he simply forced another tiny smile and said, "It is settled, then. First thing tomorrow, I will write to the Royal College of Surgeons and request that they amend the exams to include a section on dancing."
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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 26, 2021 15:58:44 GMT
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In spite of his embarrassment, and in spite of his general distaste for the social aspect of these events, he found himself acknowledging that Penelope was better company than he had expected her to be. Given how she spent most of these balls, at the fringes of the room and presumably without speaking, he had expected her to simply be rather quiet. Instead, she had proven herself to be as kind as she was quick-thinking.
He could not quite think of how to voice that opinion without sounding rather odd, but he appreciated her thoughtfulness nonetheless. Hers was not the first foot he had trodden on at one of these dances; few women, in those circumstances, had done more than offer a squeak of pain and a withering glare, to say nothing of going out of their way to make excuses for him. It was... endearing, almost.
"I suppose it is," he replied. He might have left the matter at that, but some foolish part of him make some attempt to match her in conversation. "I regret to say that fine dancing was not included in the hospital curriculum. Perhaps I ought to suggest it to them." Hardly Shakespearean wit, but it was the best he could do.
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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 24, 2021 23:05:40 GMT
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Lewis could feel the flush spreading across his cheeks, but there was little he could do to erase it. He positively abhorred drawing attention to himself at these damned parties for any reason, let alone for such an embarrassing one, and it was too much to hope that the onlookers had failed to see his misstep. Given how gracefully the rest of the pairs were dancing, no deviation was likely to go unnoticed.
All he could do now was pray that Lady Whistledown herself had not been watching the dance closely enough to note the mistake. He had no doubt that she would be in attendance somewhere in this ballroom, as she scarcely ever seemed to miss any society event worth attending, but if luck was on his side, there would be enough gossip this evening that a surgeon's poor footwork would not make the cut.
Keeping his head resolutely down so that he could watch his feet, Lewis continued with the steps of the dance in silence for a moment. Right foot, left foot, turn. He managed to spin her away and pull her back in with tolerable success, this time. When she came back near enough to speak again, he muttered, almost defensively, "I did practice this evening, before the ball. I thought I had the steps down."
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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 23, 2021 17:56:30 GMT
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In his first few years in London, Lewis had not known how to dance at all, not had he been particularly inclined to learn. Even if he had been invited to any balls, he would have been far too occupied with his studies to think of attending them. Some of his fellow students — the ones who came from wealth, mostly — attended them often and with enthusiasm; at the back of lecture halls, there were always a few young men whispering eagerly about the latest scandal or the prettiest debutante. Lewis only ever paid them enough mind to shoot glares over when the whispering grew loud enough to disrupt his note-taking.
When he obtained his qualifications and entered the professional world, however, he quickly came to learn that social standing was as vital to his success as his operating skill, if not more so. Whether he liked it or not, he had to become acquainted with the finer points of social engagement.
He was fortunate, at least, for Morrison, who was an exceptional dancer and who required only a good bottle of wine in exchange for an afternoon of instruction. It had taken hours for him to get Lewis even vaguely competent, and he had declared it certain that Lewis would never be graceful, but the basic steps served well enough for most balls. Thankfully, the band had chosen one of the first dances that Lewis' fellow surgeon had taught him. "You are tempting fate, I think, by saying that. If you—" Famous last words. Like clockwork, distracted by the conversation, he trod on her foot. Flushing red, he jerked his own foot back. "I am so sorry."
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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 23, 2021 3:06:13 GMT
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Well, there was certainly no avoiding the dance now. Swallowing down his trepidation, Lewis led the way onto the dance floor and took his position alongside the other couples. As the band struck up the first few notes of the tune, Lewis realised, to his immense relief, that it was a song he recognised. That, at least, would make the dance somewhat easier to get through.
His first few steps were rather uncertain, but he managed to make them relatively in time with the music — and, more importantly, he managed to make them without stepping on either of Penelope's feet. He would certainly not be called graceful by even the most generous of observers, but as long as he managed to execute the steps, that was satisfactory enough for his own standards.
When the dance obliged him to pull her in, he almost managed a smile. This one was barely a twitch of the lips, but it was more genuine than the tight, false smiles he had forced onto his countenance earlier on in their conversation. He seemed — if not quite pleased — at least content. "There," he said, "I seem to have spared your toes thus far."
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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 22, 2021 17:18:14 GMT
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Lewis had to rein in the urge to scowl at her remark on Lady Whistledown. When the pamphlets had first been distributed throughout the ton, Lewis had initially taken no interest; he had presumed that they would hold no value to him, and as such, he saw no reason to pay them any mind. Within weeks, however, no one in London could speak of anything but Lady Whistledown, even in the hospital. That had left Lewis with little choice — if he wanted to stay abreast of all the happenings in the city, he had to pick up the wretched papers. He himself had only been mentioned once, after the ball he'd forced himself to attend last month, and Whistledown had noted him only to remark upon the novelty of a poorly-mannered surgeon, and a Welshman at that, attending a high society event.
In fairness, 'she called me a surly and ill-mannered surgeon' was not exactly much of a counter to Penelope's point that Whistledown reported the truth.
He forced himself to let the matter go. Penelope, like the majority of the ton, was likely to adore Lady Whistledown as much as she dreaded her, and complaining about the woman's pamphlets would likely get him nowhere. Instead, he forced a smile in reply to her joke and said, "A fine point indeed, Miss Featherington." As the last quivering strains of the song faded away and the new partners began to make their way onto the dance floor, Lewis turned back to Penelope once more and offered his hand. "Shall we?"
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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 22, 2021 16:34:27 GMT
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Lewis let Anthony take the lead, keeping his back ramrod straight and his hands clasped firmly behind his back as he followed the Viscount. He despised the closeness that the packed room necessitated — no matter how careful he tried to be as he wove through the crowd, it was nearly impossible not to brush against people here and there, leaving Lewis feeling dreadfully claustrophobic even in the vast, high-ceilinged ballroom.
He did his best to keep up with Anthony, nevertheless. He could stave off his discomfort for an hour or two, just long enough to get through the introductions he needed to make, and then he could depart for the comfort of his own home. As long as he had that goal to work towards, he could bear the rest of the evening's nonsense.
"I do not attend them often, no." Not if I can help it went left unsaid. "I have yet to make friends of many noblemen in London."
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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 22, 2021 14:19:26 GMT
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Lewis should have known better than to hope that things would be so simple. The ballroom was positively packed with people drifting their way around; even the most eagle-eyed observer would have had a difficult time picking out anyone from the crowd at this vantage point. There was also the small matter that Lewis, having never met Sir Peel yet in person, had very little idea of what the man even looked like. Anthony's offer was perhaps the most sensible, as much as Lewis cringed at the thought of having to mill about and make polite small talk.
Still, he recognised that the Viscount was doing more than his duty in offering to accompany Lewis on this endeavour. It was more than many hosts would have done, especially as it kept Anthony from seeing to the other guests. Lewis, who had scarcely met Anthony's eyes properly since the Viscount had first approached, shot the man a brief, appreciative look before nodding once. "Yes. Let us walk."
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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 22, 2021 2:36:45 GMT
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Had it been socially acceptable to do so, Lewis might have laughed at the sheer absurdity of Anthony's first question. Perhaps you find similar enjoyment? It was a polite enough supposition to make, and one that Anthony had no reason to find strange, but to Lewis, the idea that he could genuinely enjoy any part of these balls felt ridiculous. He wished he could enjoy them, certainly; he wished that he could conduct himself with the ease of the nobles and the grace of the debutantes. But if the mention of his profession was not enough to drive a guest to turn a cold shoulder, the Welsh accent laying heavy on his tongue did the trick for others, and while enough charm might manage to smooth over both of those things, the type of charm required for these events was not something that came easily to Lewis.
If he could have expressed the sheer exhaustion he felt at the prospect of having to force himself to go through the motions of the rest of this event, he would have. Perhaps, when he had a moment in private with the Viscount, he might explain. For how, however, there was little to do but grit his teeth and get through the evening. As soon as he could get himself in front of the right guests this evening, things would come easier.
"You are most kind, Lord Bridgerton. As it happens, I understand the MP for Chippenham, Sir Peel, is in attendance tonight. If you would be able to introduce me, I would be grateful."
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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 21, 2021 23:06:11 GMT
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The hesitation in the Viscount's response was minimal, but it was enough to bring a faint flush of embarrassment to Lewis' countenance. Of course the decorations were an odd first choice to remark upon in this context. In conversation with the other guests, decorative choices might have made a fine matter for small talk, but there was little reason to bring the matter up to one's host. There were a thousand better things he might have said.
Phenomenal. Two minutes through the door and he was already blundering.
Clearing his throat and attempting to squash his own sense of embarrassment, Lewis nodded tightly. "Yes. It is all splendid." Better to keep the compliments vague. The less said, the better — that way, there was less opportunity for further putting his foot in his mouth with awkward remarks. Hoping to shift the conversation away from his own opinions, he hastily added, "You are enjoying your evening, I hope? It must be taxing to play host to such a large event."
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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 21, 2021 18:08:05 GMT
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It had not escaped Lewis' notice that Penelope was scarcely ever asked to dance. He was far from the most observant of men, but it was rather hard to miss the way that she always seemed to be left on the fringes of the ballroom at events like these. He was not well-versed enough in the minute workings of society to determine precisely why that was. As much as the colouring of her attire was rather unfortunate, bad taste in fashion could hardly be enough to scare away suitors, and he was sure he had heard that the Featherington family was well-respected enough in the ton. True, she was not the most striking woman in the room, but decent conversation was surely worth more than a vapid pretty face.
Whatever the reason, however, it mattered little to Lewis. His interest in the affairs of the ton extended only as far as they concerned his own interests; it was useful to know who was courting whom so that there was small talk to make with the rest of society, but beyond that, he did not much care. Why Penelope had no suitors was of little consequence — as long as he could be certain he would not be stepping on anyone's toes by asking her to dance, that was enough.
Stepping on metaphorical toes aside, he was not out of danger of stepping on her literal toes. A waltz was even more of a daunting idea than the usual reel — at least in a reel, there was a fair amount of standing around to do, and they were not forced to dance so close together that the slightest misstep could trip them both up. The smile that he offered her in reply to the laughter was a little strained. "Let us hope it is a simple dance, yes. I'm sure Lady Whistledown will report that I am a poor excuse for a medical man if I go around injuring women's toes at a ball."
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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 20, 2021 23:33:21 GMT
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Lewis, frankly, would not have been able to name a tenth of the preparations that went into hosting a ball. His family had hosted their fair share of small gatherings in Lewis' youth, but any events held in a little Welsh coastal town were a far cry indeed from the grand balls of London's elite. The sheer amount of food, wine, music, and decorations was of such a mind-boggling scale that Lewis could not even begin to fathom how it was all organised.
But that was not, of course, something that Lewis really wished to give much thought. Given his distaste for attending parties like this, he certainly would not care to host one, and even if he would have had the inclination, he was not likely to ever be rich enough to do so. He made a decent enough living, but he was certainly no Astley Cooper. The inner workings of. ball like this were not for him to speculate upon; as long as there was ample wine to ease his nerves, that would provide satisfaction enough.
He had just set down his empty glass and reached for a second when the sound of the viscount's voice startled him. Turning sharply, he forced a polite smile onto his lips and reached out to grasp Anthony's hand in a firm shake. "Lord Bridgerton. It was an honour to receive your invitation." That much, at least, was not a lie — it had been genuinely flattering. Beyond that, he was not entirely sure what else to say. Limply, he gestured around at the room at large. "The, uh— the... decorations are wonderful." What on earth did one say to make small talk at events like these?
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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 20, 2021 22:38:02 GMT
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Lewis' first instinctive reaction was relief. As long as he danced at least a handful of times tonight, he could count his social duties fulfilled, and her agreement to dance this next round with him brought him one step closer to that. The sooner he got these infernal dances over with, the sooner he could take his leave.
The next emotion to come, naturally, was nervousness. Getting dances out of the way was easier said than done; he had never been a graceful fellow, and no matter how many times Dr. Morrison had tried to instruct him on the proper order of steps, he never quite managed to commit them to memory as well as the Scotsman could, to say nothing of actually performing that proper order in time with the music.
There was nothing to be done to back out now, of course — he had to complete a few dances, and there was likely to be no partner more forgiving than Penelope Featherington. Still, he thought he ought to do her the courtesy of warning her first. Taking his place beside her, he clasped his hands anxiously behind his back and fixed his gaze on the twirling dancers. It would take some time for the first dance to conclude; until then, there was little to do but wait. "I... must inform you, Miss Featherington," he said, without turning his head towards her, "that I am far from the ton's best dancer. I hope you will forgive my poor footwork."
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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 19, 2021 20:18:05 GMT
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Lewis had noticed, of course, how poorly the colour of Penelope's clothing suited her complexion. He was far from an expert in fashion, but it would have been difficult not to take note of how sallow her gowns always made the young woman look. Why she did not wear another colour, he could not fathom. It had never particularly occurred to him that she might not have been given the liberty to choose the colour herself; in spite of growing up with a sister, Lewis rarely had occasion to wonder at the differences between growing up as a young man and growing up as a young woman.
Nevertheless, neither the colour of her gown nor its effect on her appearance mattered very much to him. If he had wished to dance with a girl for her stunning countenance, there were at least a dozen that he could have chosen from tonight's company. What he wanted for this dance was a woman who was agreeable, and Penelope, in his opinion, was certainly that.
He was conscious of something almost like a twinge of sympathy at her surprised stuttering. He, too, found himself unpleasantly tongue-tied at these events more often than he would like to admit, and it had always been a profound source of embarrassment. He considered, briefly, whether he ought to offer the young woman an apology for startling her, but after deciding that drawing attention to the matter would likely serve only to embarrass her further, he discarded the idea. Keeping his tone as pleasant and neutral as possible, he replied, "I am well, thank you. I would be much obliged if you would join me for the next dance."
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Post by Lewis Anwyl on Mar 19, 2021 18:33:04 GMT
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Social engagements, in general, were all varying levels of unpleasant. At best, they were simply tedious and tiring; at worst, they were positively intolerable. Smaller dinner parties tended to be the most bearable, but large parties — or, Heaven forbid, balls — were by far the worst of all. Had he been capable of avoiding them altogether, Lewis certainly would have done so, but every so often, the calls of society were a little too insistent to ignore. Lewis knew too well how it would look if he turned down too many invitations in one season, especially one as well-attended by London's elite as this ball in question would be. Several members of parliament were rumoured to be coming, after all. If Lewis could just get through the social nonsense of the evening, he might be able to insert himself into conversation with one or two politicians, which would prove advantageous indeed.
Getting through the social nonsense, however, was easier said than done. Remembering every little nuance and rule was a daunting task, especially when one small mistake could cost a man his entire reputation. He had spent nearly an hour agonising over the colour of the waistcoat he ought to wear — not out of any genuine interest in his own appearance, but out of an uneasy recollection of some mention in Lady Whistledown's latest column about the poor choice of colour some other poor gentleman had made at another event.
Thankfully, once he had arrived at the ball itself, the first part of the evening had passed by relatively smoothly. He made, at least, no great missteps, in his own estimation. Then, of course, came the part of the night that Lewis had been dreading: the dancing. His heart positively sank as the band struck up their first jaunty tune and the flood of couples made their way to the centre of the room. He had dawdled enough that he could miss the first dance without comment, but he was well aware that he could not do the same for every dance.
Finding a suitable partner was the first issue. He could not select anyone too eager, too old, or too low in station — anyone, in short, who would be desperate enough to marry that the prospect of wedding a working man would not deter them. It had to be someone who would consent to dance with a mere surgeon, but would not come with a marriage-minded mother in tow. After casting his nervous glance a few times around the room, he settled on a red-haired woman standing near one of the columns. They had been introduced very briefly by her mother at the last event, and although he had never had cause to speak directly with her, he was sure that he had seen her at a small handful of these parties prior to that introduction, almost always at the back of the room with a rather sad expression. She would do well enough, he wagered. Her mother had two other daughters to marry off before this one, and she did not strike him as the sort of woman who would stoop to pursuing a man without a fortune as a husband for any of her girls. Penelope was, in short, the safest option he was likely to find. Careful to skirt around the edge of the room to avoid the throng of dancers, Lewis approached Penelope, bowed stiffly, and addressed her. "Miss Featherington. Have you a partner for this next dance?"
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